Before I came to Shepherd’s House I slept in my car at Walmart for almost 6 months, before I could admit that I needed help. My trailer burned and I was homeless at 58 years old and I had no where to turn. That was a turning point for me. It was hard to admit that I needed help. At that time I was very vulnerable. I was living on a farm with 3 children to raise. I started working on the farm and got involved in a relationship that I should have never been in. I lived like that for 32 years. The man died and it was a rude awakening for me. My trailer burnt and I ended up in a psychiatric ward for depression and suicide intentions. That is where I heard about Shepherds House.
I prayed that I would be accepted. I was accepted by Miss Tina who was the director and was on my way home to Shepherds House to live with 6 women and 6 men. I had to be on my toes to be able to live in a house with other people with other attitudes and problems just as bad as mine. I had to realize at first that I did have problems and that I could talk to a good Christian woman like Miss Tina. I learned that before I could grow spiritually that I had to forgive others. That I could not handle the situation in the way that I wanted to. I learned that God doesn’t have favoritism for anyone and that forgiveness had to come from my own heart.
I realized that I had a lot of hatred toward others. I am still living as a Christian and learning from other godly Christian women I know that the lord has put me in front of. The lord put me at Shepherd’s house for a reason. Miss Tina lead me to the Lord 2 weeks after I came to Shepherd’s House. I’m in church and I now have a church family. I talk to the lord about everything.
After about 6 months at Shepherd’s House I rented a room from Miss Tina for about 3 months.
In that time I was seeing a man that I met at Shepherd’s House. I was lying behind Miss Tina’s back. The man was telling me all kinds of lies. I was really going thru some things in my life and I thought this man loved me and would help me. But boy was I wrong, he was wanting me to do drugs with him. When I wanted to leave him he turned on me ready bad. He knocked me down , blacked my eye. I was going to leave him but he said that he would change. The next time it got worst, he hit me and threw me across the room and broke my hip. I stayed in the hospital for 3 weeks in the facility for battered women. I am so glad that he could not get to me because he said that he was going to hold me down and shoot me up with drugs. He would even stay up all night just watching me to make sure that I didn’t leave. He erased all of my contacts out of my phone so that I would have no contact with the outside world. He tried to brain wash me into believing that God was bad for me and that no one loved or cared about me. He told me many times that God had left me and just did not care about me anymore. He told me that I was garbage just waiting for the garbage truck to pick up and dispose of me.
I knew right then that he was from Satan. I started praying for God to get me out of this.
After the 3 weeks in the hospital I came back to Shepherd’s House and after 2 weeks came down with Covid, back in the hospital for 2 weeks, motel for 10 day isolation and then back to Shepherd’s House.
I have finally got my own place. I am in church and growing as a Christian. I am learning to talk to the Lord even more and to trust him. Sometimes that is hard for me to except God’s forgiveness and the forgiveness of others. I’ve learned that God is my friend... and to put my confidence in him and not men...